Post Traumatic Stress
In 2001, I was in a ‘near fatal’ car accident. This is the car I was driving…
It was a while before I got back behind the wheel. Now, it’s been 7 years and the physical scars from the broken glass have started to fade.
But today I was reminded that there’s another injury that is far from healed. My pastor and I hit the road this morning for a meeting. It was snowing and the roads had not been plowed or salted. His pick up truck slid all over the road. We went up a couple of hills practically sideways and fishtailed in the face of oncoming traffic more than once. Not fun driving conditions for anyone. That’s for sure.
But for me, it was hell. We got back safe and sound but I’m still recovering from the experience. My back and legs are sore from tensing my muscles for over an hour straight. There are marks on both my hands where my fingernails dug in and there’s a bruise on my lip where I bit it continually.
My pastor knew exactly what was going on and was so kind & encouraging. He is a vietnam vet and he said “I’m still scared of gunshots. These things take time. Don’t be so hard on yourself”
I’m grateful for his words. But during this new chapter of my life when I’m going to be doing a lot more long distance driving, I need – more than ever – to be free of this. If I had been behind the wheel today, I honestly don’t know if I would have been able to force myself to keep going. If I’m going to continue living in this part of the country, I have got to get a grip.
I’d love to hear that there’s a book I can read with 4 easy steps to healing. But I know better.
Can anyone offer advice?