Loving Every Minute

I just wanted to take a moment to reflect on this awesome time in my life.  It’s been almost 2 months since Tim proposed to me. We are really enjoying being engaged. I’m realizing more and more that we’re one of those irritating couples that can’t stop staring at each other and smile all the time.  It’s disgusting.

We’ve spent these last two months planning our wedding and dreaming about our life together.

Next week we get to start celebrating with our families and friends. It starts with a trip to Albany for a bridal shower hosted by Tim’s mom and a party with a bunch of his friends. The following weekend is a girls night with a bunch of friends including one who’s also getting married this fall.  Then comes the shower hosted by my mom. Before we know it, it will be November and we’ll be standing in front of God and our families, promising to be faithful to each other forever.

Anyone who’s frustrated by being single will want to punch me square in the mouth for saying this (I know because I was one of you a year ago) … but this man, the one God designed to be my mate … was absolutely, positively worth the wait.

And I can’t wait to be his bride.

Things in my life have been way too serious lately.

So here you go. Enjoy!

This has been a difficult week. I’ve been faced with the news that the church I work for and love is in the middle of a serious financial crisis. One of the possible effects of this crisis is that my position may be cut.  Anyone who follows this blog knows how much I truly love the people I serve. It breaks my heart that this is even a discussion … but it is.

There’s a hope that things will turn around so that I can stay but that will need to happen very quickly and dramatically.

I am doing my best to trust in God during this time. Tim and I are talking through what the future might look like if my position is cut and we truly believe that if that’s God’s will, He has something else waiting for me.  Something awesome.

This situation has reminded me of something I had forgotten. This ministry is not mine. These students aren’t mine. They belong to God. He loves them way more than I am even capable of.  It has been a privilege to be a part of their lives these last several years and I’m sure I’ll be blessed by them in the years to come if I’m able to stay.

But either way, God will still be God.

I posted this piece of scripture as my facebook status this morning:
“I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.”- Psalm 16:8

My cousin, who has a lot of questions about faith and church, left this comment: Does this mean that if you are falling you put your hands out and they go before you to break your fall???

I’ve never thought of that scripture in exactly that way but her interpretation is exactly what I needed to see in that verse today. I do feel like I’m kind of like I’m in a free fall with everything that’s going on right now. There is great comfort in knowing that God is reaching out ahead of me to break my fall.

Do you ever wonder if your familiarity with scripture is getting in the way of God speaking to you through it?  I quoted that verse this morning knowing 100% that it’s true … but it took someone who isn’t familiar with it to give me the reassurance I really needed to hear.